roddick roddick roddick!

2009-06-29T18:13:00.001+08:00

im not happy.
im not happy at all...
im just crying all the time.
why is it so farkin hard jus to maintain this r's?
im always so tired...
my mind's gettin weaker
i cant think clearly anymore.
i cant.
i dont wanna be so weak anymore.

2009-05-18T00:39:00.001+08:00

i feel taht i m a really bad daughter...
i am...
not even a good person...
i really should do some reflection and do something about it.
life sucks....

2009-04-28T16:11:00.002+08:00

wahkao! its been long i've blogged.
i guess coming online's just been boring.
there's nothing to do!
msn : boring
fb : getting boring
what else to do.......
read circulars? (kill me pls)

jus had my jclass (business class) trng and went for my sny
so glad i worked with nice crew! taught me quite abit.
but my memory sucks, and im always so blur n clumsy.
-.-

went to melbourne. met up with shan! :D:D:D:D:D:D
missed her so much.
so glad she came over bunk in to my hotel. rocks! love the hotel.
just gettin bimbo and watched charles angel.
aft that jus slp till 1pm!
off for lunch in the city. had really good food!!!
shan! eat more good food! no more junkies for you!
the weather there's COLD!
thanks to shan tellin me its jus coolin like aircon rm temp, i jus brought a think cardigan, a shirt, a spag and a jeans onli! haha.
it was 13degrees! STRONG WIND! i wore everything i had on. nearly wanted to cover myself with the blanket and go out. cold cold~

coming back to s'pore was FREAKIN HOT.
bathed thrice in a day. how bad that is.
and finally, mama papa returns from sfo! :D:D:D:D
finally have good food! yummy~
really should make myself go learn how to cook good food mans.

2009-02-04T00:13:00.002+08:00

do i feel relieved?
or do i feel regretful?
or do i feel heartbroken?
i guess alil of all? haha.

but all i know is, thats the end...
and i shall be strong.
strong and siao sa like i used to be
thats who i am...
someone who doesnt get all heartbroken over guys, cry over them
i always thought gals who cry for guys are really stupid.
now im one of them -.-
now i understand how ple can cry over r's....
i understand...
but still,
i am a really stupid woman.
and i dont wanna be one anymore.
anymore...

things will be fine..
things will be better.
i hope~

you are my sunshine
my only sunshine
you make me happy
when skies are grey....

my sunshine will appear again~

2008-12-16T23:50:00.001+08:00

feeling damn farked up
stop controlling me!!!
stop restricting me!!!
im a grown up!
or at least, i am!
i can take care of myself, i am independent enuf
jus let me have my freedom and my life!
all this is jus gonna make me dislike all of u
i hate this.
stop it!
STOP IT!

i want to live my own life, i want to live my life without restrictions.
I AM FARKIN SICK OF ALL THE RESTRICTIONS IN LIFE!!!
I WANT TO BE FREE!!!
LET ME BE!

2008-11-30T02:34:00.007+08:00

i shall finally post on trip to egypt which i jus got called up 4hrs before reporting and was still waiting for my dinner!
how rush~

the city is really.... how do i sae? unique?
its all yellow n brown cos thats the rule set by the govt
all buildings ahve to be that color. haha. weird huhh...
and its pretty polluted due to all the old cars they're using
n speaking of the cars, the way they park is really WEIRD
all the cars are parked paralle and all touchin each other!!!
how the hell do they move their car out mans!..

i went to see the pyramids!
its really very amazing mans.
you will jus keep wondering how do the ple build it last time...
saw the sphinx too. that one is really WOW...
and i find it really beautiful mans...
felt quite eerie at the tombs tho..
and when we went to the egyptian musuem...
where all the mummies are at.
didnt dare to go see them. haha. veri hum~

but damn emo... the food there is like -.-
omggdddoo~~~
i damn emo with the food mans.
onli had ONE good meal n its their fast food which our tour guide bought for us....
yummy~

ok enuf said
PICTURE TIME!

the sky looks so pretty right!

the sphinx...

camel ride! damn smelly butt damn pain too~

my name in egyptian n in arabic! cool huhh!

the pyramid!!!

at the papyrus museum

2008-11-28T10:25:00.002+08:00

why...
i kept pondering
how can he do this to me?
all the lying....
all this farking crap shit..
i hate it when ple lie...
and yeah. thanks alot!
thanks for making me grow up.

i dont blv anyone now.
i wont trust anyone no more

im the most stupid girl. whee~
its no point being a good person

2008-11-27T16:30:00.001+08:00

time to grow out of this.
time to put a stop to this.
time to move on.
time will heal my wounds...

can it?

2008-11-18T00:43:00.002+08:00

its so hard to xiang de kai...
cos everytime when i've made up my mind on it, things changed...
either im soft hearted again, or i cant bear to...
things aint the same anymore.
and i hate it this way....
what can i do?
im tired tooo....
rarr.
i shall go slp now.
had a sucky flight tho ifs is reli funny mans. made everyone laugh like mad in briefing room. lol
sleeping time! hope it rains later makes it nicer to slp!

2008-11-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

fed up...
so irritated...
rarrrrrrrrrrrr~

im bored...
i need a new hobby mans

2008-11-12T00:10:00.006+08:00

i finally went to italy!!!
i finally went to venice!!!
and the trip is bloody short...
its jus not enough mans.
rarrr~
train ride alone to venice was 3hrs...
the pasta n pizza there is REALLY GOOD!
yummy~
didnt get to take a ride on the gondola though....
emo~

and it feels good to clear my probation in italy mans!
woohoo~
haha. cool... must go for celebration mans.

quantum of solace is not bad eh!
i like the soundtrack by alicia keys and jack white!
nice.
next movie to watch : MADAGASCA 2!!!!
(i like to move it move it~)

picture time!!! :D

2008-10-31T15:15:00.002+08:00

my 2nd time to paris wasnt exactly that fun :(
photos turn out really badly (dont wanna bitch out it anymore)
but i act gave up n even had to angle and take photos myself man.
how lang~

im growing wisdom tooth!!!
OUCH~
hurts like mad
my gums are like swollen. very hard to chew. make me lose appetite..
guess i lost some weight! heh heh
but lucky my tooth will grow out straight.
so no need to do surgery! yes!!!

permed my hair too!
sexy hot babe~
haha. gaowei....

haii. im really sick of working.
i jus wanna stay here in sg... see all the farmilar ple and hang out at all the familiar places with the ple i love...
i jus kinda get sick with meetin ple all over again n then they will jus disappear, u will hardly meet them or even contact them at all...
u dont exactly make frens?
i dont know lahs. sometimes jus feel lonely...

going throught a vexing period now over deciding some stuffs
and none of the parties understand how i feel and wads my position...
they jus want it their own way.
how about my way?
n u dont even show me ur support and jus keep on saein crap shit n making me more vexed. it aint exactly helpin if u think that works or wad reverse psychology crap.
u dont even make me feel its worth it to fight for us...
forget it mans. really. sumt i feel really tired. like im always alone doing/ fighting all this crap shit....
im angry. u dont even noe.
ha.
n u come attitude me crap too.
wadeva lahs....
i really dont noe waad u wan.
im losing faith.
go do wadeva ayou wan...
all these double standard crap.
i've had it

oh wells! but cant wait for my annual leave!

2008-10-05T18:42:00.005+08:00

yay jus came back from my long dubai-istanbul 8days flight!
and on the wae back from dubai, plane had to delay for more than 2hrs.
wth -.-
but its ok! got to spend more time with my dear xiaoting!
finally meeet her outstation. bunked it and we zi hai in her room. on music loud loud n jump on the bed like small kids! lol
XIAOTING! send me our pics ahs!

this time had longer stay in dubai.
went for dessert tour!
it was pretty fun mans!
the car drivin rnd the dessert like some rollar coaster damn exciting!
but someone in my car act had motion sickness....
driver cant drvie really hiong n stuffs :((
but still, its an experience!

and then istanbul!
went there for holiday last yr. so i was kinda like going back to see the same few places i had went. btr den hibernating in the hotel
was posing like idiot with my elmo... ple arnd were lol-in!!!
*blush blush*
but it was reli nice sitting by the sea and jus drinkin the apple tea mans. yummy~
but now im really scared of kebab!!! and i finally found my gigantic potato! yummy~

2008-09-05T00:43:00.001+08:00

im tired.
im hurt.
i've had enough.
maybe its time to end it huhh?
ir sucks to be emo all the time.
it sucks when your heart is always aching.
it sucks when he doesnt trust youu.

2008-09-01T22:35:00.008+08:00

hello! im FINALLY blogging again...
have been to quite afew places.
like amritsar (in india) , zurich, melbourne again, and jus return from seoul and sanfrancisco! ((:

san francisco is quite nice mans.
but!
evil... make me spend freakin lots of money mans. ouch ouch ouch~
hotel is good! jus at the streets mans. walk out can start shoppin n got lots of food arnd too! nice~ haha
seoul is good! i jus love korea food mans! yummy~ the bbq, the kimchi soup, the tofu soup... omg~ damn nice!

okies! picture time!!! ((:

AMRITSAR!
i really dont like the place. oops.
the hotel kept blackin out! freaking scared i had to go borrow torch light! wth... haha. but food was good! everydae eat curry n bryani until keep lao sai mans! haha

view from my hotel room oh~

the golden temple!!!

PARIS
went to the sacred of heart, this church at the hill there. pretty nice mans ((:
go take a look! and drinkin coffee there is really nice~

THE LV SHOP!!!!!!! :D

the famous moulin rouge~

and this is the size of eiffle towel i saw. omg. sad sia~

ZURICH!!!
very nice and comfortable place to be in! ((:

SAN FRANCISCO!
the golden gate bridge. you should go take a look at it. its act pretty beautiful to take pics with. nxt time shall go in the night. looks really good in the postcards. haha

look at the tiles on the floor! COOL RIGHT!

view of the city!

and htis is alcatraz!
the prison that like an island that noone has ever escaped before...
tour for it was booked -.- sian oh~ took from far. haha

alrighty! now roster is like crap. haii. emo~
hmm seems like ple have started uni. wonder how they are doing...
keep me updated of ur life ple! ((:

2008-07-17T22:57:00.002+08:00

haii.
EMOOOOOOOOO
haven felt like this for some time
and it doesnt feel good
and i hate to feel this wae.
maybe i should get out of this
or maybe... i should give us another chance and see how it goes...
i dont know mans....
rarrrrrrr.

back from paris!
i didnt get to see my eiffle.
haii.
i onli saw a freaking tiny one! whee!
:(
would love to go back ere again.

mambo night was freakin boring mans
rarr...
no more wed nights out for me.
hate standbys....

2008-06-12T15:34:00.008+08:00

pictures from beijing and amsterdam!!!
i didnt get to eat my peking duck.
damn gaowei dao.... rarr
haii.
but visited the forbidden city
its HUGE!!!!
and i cant find the yu hua yuan (the garden lahs)
i mean i found it, but its FREAKING small...
-.-
tv always show so big wan!!! how can...
scam~

amsterdam is full of porn and sex and drugs.
guys sure love the place mans.
haha
quite turn off by sex now /:
but other than that, its a pretty nice place!
the windmill and the country side
and the shopping (though its damn ex)

2008-05-25T21:52:00.006+08:00

i'll just let pictures do the talking from my trips
((:

ahh how i wish i could spend more time at home seriosuly...
got really homesick at moscow.
damn~

ahh i should really stop gg clubbin.
its bad.
BAD...
stay awae from it!

10days flight is really veri tiring mans...
but did alot of shopping at houston!
:D
the red square is pretty cool mans.
lots of nice buildings
we wanted to go see lenin
we didnt know how to go jus cross over some barrier n we like like 1m awae from the security guard n he blew the whistle f loud at us! lol. wth... damn lang bei. so we walked a big round round alot of buildings to get to the ticketin place. and when we got back, the place was closed!!! wth!!!! wasted~
stuffs at moscow are ex mans. their standard of living is act higher than at europe? woah~
there are mani other interesting stories but cant blog it here lahs. share w u guys when i see u!
((:

gotta go pack my luggage now!

2008-05-09T18:14:00.002+08:00

i love xiaoting very much
she's my sister!
FOREVER!!!
((:

graduated!!!
batch 949!
thanks for all the good memories...
i really will miss you guys.
its kinda sad and really not used to not seeing all of you in STC everyday...
haii...
its time to be independent!
and lonely... haha
keep in touch!

first solo on tues mrng!
urghh~
freaking scared. seriously.
hope everything goes well.
will be gone for 10days!
pretty long huhh...

i shall upload pics of my sny n random stuffs nxt time.
lazy as usual...

roddick's engaged. still cant accept it!
haha

2008-04-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

i didnt know it hurts so much to let go...
ah well.. at least i was happy. i really was.
thank you for everything.

today practise jumping the emergency slide again!
FREAKING HIGH DAMN HIGH
me n xiaoting jus kept runnin up the stairs to jump more... haha
but then my first jump was damn lang bei.
i took my first step and jumped.
whee damn fast damn fun!
AND THEN!
there was this rough black strips thingie at the bottom of the slide ithink its to slow u down so u can get up easier or sumt.
AND THEN!
my leg somehow got stuck there...
next thing i know, i turned 180degrees, facing the slide and my class n tcha on top and fell face down.
omg.
DAMN LANG BEI!
my tcha was like : WAD YOU DOING! (give gek face) I TAKE VIDEO AHS! (or sumt along that line and he took out his fone with the camera facin me)
all i could do was just stand up and give a pose....
there were guests and junior class around, watchin us slide, and LOL-ing me...
gaowei oh~
haha. but freakin slack day

went back to st nicks to eat orange bowl with xiaoting.
how much i miss the school mans.
but wth, got jc ol gals went back too.
den they look at us like some poly students den kept looking n looking!
wth -.-
we felt like just taking our crew pass and put it on mans.

yay got nice bdae cake.
((:

alrighty. damn tired....
bye bye

2008-04-06T21:51:00.001+08:00

my life is screwed up.
hope i am making all the right decisions.
i dont want to have any regrets again..
oh someone help me~

2008-03-30T15:42:00.002+08:00

went to maroon 5's concert with mich bob n ding
maroon 5 ROCKS!!!!
ADAM~~~~~
happy...
but sad that i sat pretty high up n the block of seats we wanted the ple are like sian sian wan. wtf. waste seats. ok sorry...
and! the concert's wae too short!
quite disappointin... tot it would be longer n stuffs...
oh wells~

just finish reading ps. i love you
ahhh NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
was crying while reading it as well...
haha. damn pathetic.

im living in confusions and dillema
i hate this

2008-03-09T21:41:00.002+08:00

here i am finally blogging.
oh wells
everyday is tiring n hectic n really new for me
learning all different things with my trng.
yeahh.
i guess i m getting used to it?
hope i will do fine...
exams coming up...
pretty nervous!
woohoo~

anw, well finally got back A's
all i can say is
FARK IT
yupp.
i dunno how to feel mans.
i mean, yeah i should feel satisfied with it since i've been gettin S n U for all my life. and finally i have non.
but, aft hearing all the results the ple arnd attained, just have the emo feel
dont get me wrong, i am really happy and glad for the ple who got their great results! CONGRATS
but, its like... some ple who didnt work that hard still could get that good, im jus angry with the way things ended.
its bloody unfair. i just... i dno..
angrry...
n tis is the best that i have?
im stupid~

alright.
thats all.

oh. and go watch PS. I LOVE YOU
FREAKING NICE N EMO~
cried from the start to the end...
ahh.
nice show ((:
made me think alot n appreciate u more.
love u flabby!

2008-02-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

these few daes had been pretty sad for me.
haii...
dont really want to talk much bout it.
but just felt controlled. like i cant even decide on things that i like for myself? wth...
and keep gettin niao n chided.
hurry come back!
i miss you bloody much! :((

went out with yingxuan on thurs.
ahh! long time no see eh!
and i dno mans. we just chatted as if we still see each other everyday kinda thing?
we weren't really distant? ha. thats good ehs. i guess thats wads meant as besties ((:

we watched sweeny todd
since there's johnny depp as cast, it should be a pretty good show right?
but no!
BLOODY HELL NO!
DO NOT WATCH THE SHOW!
it was pretty boring, alot of singing (not tt im against musical shows, but the all the songs sounded alike? ) but johnny depp can sing mans. pretty good!
and theres this guy, who only kept singing this same song onli!
the whole show he only got to sing ONE song but repeated like mad -.-
*i can feel youu, joannaaaaaa~*
ah yes we all know u can feel her,... shush!
and and and! its damn bloody and gross lahs!
hes just cutting throats and bloody kept oozing out with the sound of the bloody dripping n gushin out of ur throat. wtf mans. damn gross! the sound was damn clear! yuck!
and! they made use of the body of the ple mr todd killed to make pie!
YES! WTF! GROSS SHIT!
I DONT WANNA EAT ANYMORE PIES!!!!!! PUI!
gaowei...
anw, its not worth the money. yupp.
end of description.
thank you.

shopping all day long.
all office wear.
need to wear that for trngs....
sian.
and heels of 1-3inch.
ahhhhh how to survive the day yo!
:((

went for buffet at THE MELT at mandarin oriental
its pretty good!
good sashimi. really nice.
and dessert had choc fondue there as well!
awesome! ((:
staff are frenly too!
not a bad place to go makan. yupp
eat till damn full onli had my dinner an hour ago onli..

shall go slp and make some dreams now!
*sweet dreams pls!*

2008-01-24T16:44:00.000+08:00

wow to think UTT was sitting behind me all the time n i didnt really act notice it. haha. gosh.

but!

he wore long socks n carry backpack which doesnt reli look so...... ok sorri.
ahh. minus points le...

but still, his face looks good! ((:

o level's out todae!
im happy for my bro.
not so bai lei like me! heh
but wtf!
U ASSHOLE! EVERYDAE PLAY N WATCH TV STILL GET SO GOOD!
ASSHOLE!!! RARRR...

ok wad a borin dae. haii
look forward to sat! ((:

2008-01-21T23:42:00.000+08:00

hmm i got a job offer!
wow! when i heard it i just REALLY? over the fone sounding like i just received some prank calls...
but, i just rejected it. i dont know seriosuly. i took a long time to think bout it whether i wanted to accept anot. in the end, nope!
maybe im regretting now.
or maybe... maybe there's another better job for me.
i dont know. haii

hmm was just thinking...
i realise most shows right..
where they talk about relationships...
its 99.999999% that the gals love the guys first and are willingly to do ANYTHING for the idiotic asshole guys...
and they ALWAYS get treated REALLY bad but still love them with all their heart...
and then sooner or later, the guys fall in love with the gals too and will die for them and cry with them wadeva crap.
i just dont get it.
why is it always the gals first?
and do they have to treat the gals BLOODY BAD?
do they deserve it?
they should just revenge mans!
but easier said than done huhh...
gals will always end up soft-hearted
whatever bullshit the guys say, they'l still accept them and always waits for them...
why can't this be the other way round???
i really wonder.
and i wonder, are the gals labelled as dumb then?
or should we praise them as brave to accept this challenge and hardship before they get to enjoy their happiness and xing fu?
i dont know mans.
i guess im just one dumbo too! haha.
but i m happy ((:
and i shall take revenge! muahahhaha~

ahh hungry. supper time!

2008-01-20T01:08:00.000+08:00

i have been watching australian open these few days.
after watchin the match btw roddick and that german guy he lost to unfortunately, which i got kinda pissed off watchin too btw cos roddick played the last game so dumb! he suck at coming into the net n he jus.... ok forget it. first time i watch roddick till so gaowei...
anw, i was watching the match.
half wae, i just suddenly missed being a sportswoman badly...
i miss playing matches
i miss trngs
i miss my teammates
i miss nationals
i miss zonals
i miss all the team meals
i miss winning
i miss going through all the tension
i miss all the cheering
i miss it when teammies cheer for me
i miss cheering for myself

ahhh
i just miss everything
and i've been thinkin bout last yr's finals
it was truly an amazing experience.
and i really thank my teammies n coach n tchas for it.
really grateful
((:

i want to compete again!!!!!!!!!

went for few interviews on fri.
oh wells~
one was testing me on my chi
one was testing me on my com skills n eng
even have TEST!!! gosh. must write a letter to MOH bout canteen conditions... n yeah excel... which i totally flunk. nice~
one kept repeating that i have no exp.
ok! wadeva~
dont feel like findin job anymore le. sian~
juust slack!
eat slp eat slp eat slp eat slp! whee~

*burp*
im always full
eat eat eat
eating a steak is not even full for me!
ha! scary.

i hate insomnia :(
its killing me
i jus keep thinkin bout stuffs taht happen n wad i wan to happen n i cant stop it!
this is bad.

watched cloverfield w S that day.
soso bah.
the gal's hot.
haha. ok random.
the monster's FREAKING GAOWEI! yuck
and the story's act bout love.
pretty touched.
and the film is like showing someone's videotape.
so its like watch till damn gong... image keep shakin one.

ahh ok its a long post.
byebye

hope tis week pass SUPER FAST!
sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat!!!
:D

2008-01-13T01:07:00.000+08:00

first post for the new year!
so fast and its already 2008
i really hope this year will be better since past yrs have always been so farking shitty. oh wells~
here comes 2008!!!
((:

i'm really into maroon 5 now mans.
their new songs are so nice and the lead singer adam is so sexy when he performs! gosh!

watch this!!!
altho he "i know" supa long till abit -.-

hmm most of the guys are gone from my class.
to NS!
ahh~ you are all being missed!!!
esp you...

went to see the docs one day for some allergic stuffs
so, wells, i shun bian asked the doc
"doctor! why do i keep burping all the time?"
omg the doctor instant LOL infront of me n repeated "burping? hahahaha"
omg so embarassing! haha. wad a stupid qns to ask...
but anw she said its normal! go ahead and burp!
YES! I SHALL BURP MORE!
whee~

was packing my drawers today
and i found many stuffs mans!
baby pics, 2001 coins for cny wan, and all the cards and letters ple gave me.
all the love my frens showed me...
thank you all. it was really nice reading them again and thinkin of all of them...
and i feel so bad for not sending any cards/letters at all
/:
i'l try this yr!!!

i cant seem to stop eating macdonald's twister fries. shit~
getting fat loh~

went swimming yst and i got darker again!
ahh this is no good...
the pool had quite alot of guys tryin to show off body and stuffs dere.
wth.
not swimming go ere for wad mans. jus wan to drown them! rarr
before i drown them think i will drown 1st! supa long nvr swim damn xin ku swimmin... ha. damn pathetic.

GET A JOB!
damn sian. so hard to get a bloody job. rarr
angry

2007-12-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

yay! back from turkey...
turkey's pretti interesting!
lots of ancient roman cities such as ephesus and troy!
but was not brought to troy... erghh
and undergrnd cities too!
almost every meal is BUFFET!
ALOT of food mans!
evreytime got 10+ deserts. hoho
tummy~

lots of cute ple to oogle at too! heehee.
and kids too! damn cute!

wah but DAMN angry!
NO SNOW!
onli the snow --> ice found on the floor...
rarr.

kebabs~
ice cream~
bake potato~
food~

stupid tour guide go there for 9days we onli learnt one bloody turkish lang.
which is ; GOOD MRNG!
and he always sae the same thing in the mrng
: good mrng (in turk), its another beautiful mrng!
-.-

now im so bored here...
everyday go town
so mani ple!
wan to throw all of them into a dustbin!
rarr.
n dno why suddenly release all the ple w B.O (no offense)
can imagine e smell n everything huhh....

bored bored

2007-12-08T02:01:00.000+08:00

tired~

had band lunch tis aftnn
thanks for the lunch!!!
((:
ate at sakura at somerset
erm... other branch ones are nicer...
yeah. the salmon sashimi quite disappointing :(
anw! ate super full and began to feel damn sleepy
aft sometime and due to circumstances, we went to kbox!
ok... i must say that they reli damn scam.
sae its 13++ den add all sorts of crap become 19+!!!!!!
$$$ fly awae~
but it was fun ((:
embrace kbox wengwoh!!!

mama scolded me for spending too much money...
haii
shant go out le
must save money!
SAVE SAVE SAVE!!!!!!!

feeling kinda empty now...
i miss you~

2007-12-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

jus had prom yst at shangri-la

it was pretti alright except $90 for the food?!
......
but anw ple are jus photowhoring everywhere!
doesnt matter eh. heh

everyone really looked diff!
gals look prettier, guys look more... mature? haha
but damn hapi my eyes look bigger for once! YES!
and fark that heels of mine mans.
super pain like shit!
im walking barefooted wheneva i could....

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WEIXIANG!!!!!

i think i gonna miss all the ple...
haii...
these two yrs gone past so bloody fast
all the shit memories and the times i've been true, all the wonderful ones...
all the shit ple i meet and the wonderful ple...
and i shall take with me everything wonderful bout hwa chong...

was damn bloody scared for the performance!
when singin half wae suddenly my mind went blank for the lyrics!
nearly break down! hoho
lucky made it thru ((:
hope i didnt made ple's nite worst /:

and this is the band! ((:

post-prom went to kop mac's seats at marina sq, which was closed...
den bought some drinks from 7-11
bitching sessions!
haha. im so going to miss these times mans...

oh wells. the sky looked so nice with all the stars!
i just lay on the grass there and look at them and just wait to puke. i bet the grass is so healthy now with all the alcohol its absorping! whee~~~
reached home at 7 i think...
damn earli!

we should have another class gathering soon!
block catching!!!!!!!!

even though its peer pressure...
ahem...
but still,
thanks alot!!! ((:

2007-11-23T01:04:00.000+08:00

wad a farking emotional dae for me
everything jus doesnt go my wae
i just have to get pissed at every lil thing
such a biatch

how can they even stand me mans....

damn irritated.
why she move my things again!
like everythings GONE?
fark lahs. pissed.

had tennis todae at ding's place.
tennis ((:

enchanted aft tt...
starting n ending was pretti bad except for the middle.
not bad!
chipmunk SUPA CUTE!!!
like omg!!!!!
i want one~
aft the show ding n junyu was like dancin n singing the song!
lol
and guess who we saw...
rudy lee!!!!
wow!!!!
still act like dno us lidat! lol

shall try to make sweet dreams

2007-11-18T20:08:00.000+08:00

IM FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
F-R-E-E-D-O-M!!!!
:D

cant blv i made it through.....
oh wells. at least its finally over.
yes!!!!!!
time to burn all the notes!
yes!
to those haven fin,

GO GO JIAYOU!!!!!!!!
HANG IN THERE! ((:

anw, finished on fri....
met up with chang!!!
non stop talking... ahaha
its so fun!!! whee~~~

boohoo...
masters cup ended
roddick lost in semi...
back injury, again...
erghh
oh wells....

SHOPPINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG~~~

ahh guess wad i dreamt of last nite?
i dreamt of doing maths! n i woke up thinkin of how to solve it!
n den.... i told myself,
EH WAKE UP! ITS OVER! DO WAD SHIT!
haha. wad a lousy dream....

2007-10-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

FARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANNA JUMP OFF THE BUILDING!!!!!!!!!!!

SOMEONE JUST KILL ME!

KILL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

I'L BE FOREVER GRATEFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i m so screwed. dont even feel like myself at all. im getting... weird!

IM A FARKIN WEIRDO!

2007-10-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

a walk to remember....
((:

today have been screwed up by her
wtf
seriously lahs....
im not a kid...
i dont do shit outside come on...
ahh wadeva lahs
freaking pissed
banana

tv is super distracting.
erghhhhh

2007-10-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

grad day was held on wed, 10th oct...
it was... boring i guess? haha
altho was greawtly entertained by 62's video. lol
then... PHOTOWHORE! hohoho! supa fun!!!!!!!
((:

i didnt noe our sch toilet mirror is so cool!

the album is taking such a bloody long time to load. banana

open hse was boring...
well, according to bro n junior...
and theres no $40 voucher!
$10 voucher to nanyang optical! -.-
lol

erghh feeling sick
just 3more weeks!
or two?
ahh fark.

2007-10-08T20:06:00.000+08:00

im happy ((:
thanks for making me happy!

i guess im recovering...
i hope im recovering...

yst the lake house was played on tv
ahh
the story is just beautiful mans...
absolutely loved the part they finally met with each other
i want to live in a lake house!
((:

a's coming
fark it.
seriously cant get to go full force...
:'(

these lyrics are really beautiful!ahh nice...

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

2007-10-07T13:14:00.000+08:00

mood swing throughout the week~
whee~

bus stop poster gal and boy! hoho

do they look familiar?? go check them out at adidas shop at the heeran!
HUGE poster!

i guess there's nothing much great worth mentioning about...
everythign sucks
banana

you gave me something to hold on.

2007-10-02T20:57:00.001+08:00

sorrow becomes your soulmate...

feeling like shit...

bid farewell to the world...

2007-09-25T19:29:00.000+08:00

~~farking ass banana shit~~

thats all i can say now
thats the only right word to describe how i feel

and fark you biatch! BLOODY IRRITATING!
shut the fark up.
nobody cares!

dont i deserve it?
cant anything pleasant happen just once?
one mud pie is not enuf

and thanks chris for being my punching bag todae
sorri if got blue black!

i cant stop doing it...
sorrry....
and its gonna be get worst and deeper....
i cant help it.
its scary i see those images...

2007-09-24T21:16:00.000+08:00

Secret Of Sheep [SOS]

our pianoist ; SHERMAN TAN

our guitarist ; TIAN CHENG

our drummer ; TAN JUN YU

our guitarist ; CHRISTOPHER WONG

vocal ; ME ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANGGG!!!

2007-09-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

Sheep of secret concert finally ended...
well, it didnt really went well to our expectations
but everyone tried and im sure we had fun! ((:
tho quite gaowei by the banana av....

played pool with class aft the concert
supa long nvr play le mans...
mich n regina's pretti good yo!!! ((:
had a sucky lunch....
my carbonara sauce is like cream soup
yuck
went for a short shoppin in town aft tt...
tired...

bro have graduated from sec4!
sooo fast...
he was like sayin all the mamas are crying... haha.

penknife is such a blunt weapon...

"what now?"
this two words kinda have a big effect on me....
dno why. just feel kinda sad aft hearin them...
wwhat now........
nothing.

who am i to you?
what does my presence mean to you?
i really want to know...
you can be so nice and sweet and yet cold and mean
sometimes i had enuf of this mood swing change thing
or perhaps im just petty....
i dont noe...
what kinda friend am i to you?

disth ea cononntmy ly im ntsd

2007-09-21T00:27:00.000+08:00

is it really my fault that things turned out this wae?
why are u always blaming me?
its true i m partly to be blamed for this
but not to this extent!
not like i wasnt affected!
come on....

sumt i still think bout the past...
how wonderful those memories were

why suddenly all change?
n turned out this wae?
it is not suppose to be like this!
never!

2007-09-17T12:04:00.000+08:00

i realise how easy it is to feel emotional
how easy it is to feel out of place
how easy it is to feel proud
how easy it is to cry
how easy it is to just forget everything
how easy it is to hurt yourself
how easy it is to cut yourself
how easy it is to be stupid
how easy it is to feel lonely
how easy it is to feel hopeless
how easy it is to feel helpless
how easy it is to be cheated
how easy it is to feel bad
how easy it is to feel angry

how easy... how easy....

yet, life is not so easy

everything is tough
everything sucks
everythings shit

wads life? just take it awae.......
i have no life.
take it.....

2007-08-30T20:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY AIREN LIWEI! ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RODDICK!!! ((:

GP -> GG!

wow! watchin tv now and this guy's teaching belly dancing!
omg! hes really good!
but... ya abit niang.
quite amazed mans!

was watchin oprah show that night
all the ple helping the poor and building schools and everything
all the meaningful stuffs
was really touched mans.
people act do care for others....
i want to be someone like that.

2007-08-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

today's like the last day of school
well kinda...
last day that we'l ever attend lessons.
kinda sad ehs...
06s6g;

a class i'll never forget
the people...
there are different types of ple mans

--> typical chi high guys

--> caring sensitive ple

--> sweet nice gals

--> jokers

--> lan addicts
--> tikos

--> dancers
--> psp addicts
--> game boy addicts
--> mfk supplier
--> guai lan ple

--> mint supplier
--> zzzzzzzzzzzzz

--> duck lovers!

--> loud hailers

--> all the lovers everywhere
--> gaying action

--> lessy ai rens
--> backside whacker

--> muggers

--> sporty ple
--> rappers
--> ponners
--> 'librians'

theres just too mani...
haha
and thats what makes our class special!
((:

2007-08-22T20:08:00.000+08:00

it wont go away......
it jus wont go away.
fark off!!!!!!!!!
i cant breathe...
i really cant.

im so grateful for having such a great ct
she gave all of us a windmill last fri when we go her mama house...
and then a plate where everyone writes something bout you.
quite sweet lahs.
something to bring back and rem for the rest of my life...

well this is it.
this fridae...
last dae that we'l have our tutorials.
no more after that.
oh wells....
sad?
kinda bahs
ha

ok dont want to think bout anything.
this is just a bad day/

2007-08-16T19:15:00.000+08:00

the worst feeling one can ever have is when someone dearest to you is being taken away and pushed into the operation room
you could only stand there and cry and do nothing but wait and pray...
you will only feel vulnerable and weakness

ahhh
so tired.
my blood pressure is realy gettin low
fainting anytime...
sucks having migrane eveyday
ergh $(@*^%

i've been cookin everyday mans.
haha! act its pretti fun!
except abit tiring when need to clean up and stuffs
thats when you'l feel like just throwin the pots away
next time buy new ones....
now i understand how tough it is being a mama n a hsewife
its SUPER tough
its SUPER tiring
its SUPER stressful
i admire and respect them mans...
mothers' day is gonna be more meaningful to me

yay!
bbq at mrs ong's mama hse tmr!!!
our class is act gonna all be present for the first time outside school!
haha

i just dont get it...
why do ple always push others to the limit and only listens and noticed whats going on when they bao chu lai....
is it that hard to just listen?

10am........
pray for the best.

2007-08-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

nothing shall go wrong tmr....
im scaared.....
all the what ifs keep popping up in my mind....
nothing must go wrong tmr
it cant.

yay!
dearest leeza send me the pic we took with the supa cute chi high junior... lol
adorable right???

and some old pics and err yah... stupid lantern... haha
memories ohh....
((:

2007-08-09T01:26:00.000+08:00

taking pics is REALLY FUN!
im glad i didnt pon school today
haha

watched bourne ultimatum
hoho
its pretty good act...
the fightin and jason bourne is COOL!!!

:where are you now?
-im sitting in my office
:i doubt so
-why do you doubt so?
:if that is so, we would be having the conversation face to face*clicks*

urgh jackie chan's face is everywhere!!!!!!!
(&%(*@$@

sat is gonna be a fine day.......

2007-08-04T20:10:00.001+08:00

anonymous: well if hc gals do that to the guys i also despise. but from wad i can see now, its mostly all the hc guys.

this week was much better than last week
but ******* is becoming more of a habit
thats not goood...

miss how is actually really nice mans
that talk with her wasnt that scary

ergh the funeral song just cant leave my head now!
shit!!!!
sherman! all your fault! lol

posted lots of pics of our class on class blog
wow...
all the times we had and the memories....
haha.
((:

start planning for your future...

2007-07-29T00:39:00.000+08:00

i've lost to myself....

jamming is fun!
watchin them play their instruments...
woah.. all the pros....
zi bei
reli regret givin up piano

a little drink at harry's bar with live music does wonder....

enlightened

2007-07-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

in the past, i used to despise and was gaowei by people who hurt and inflict pain on themselves physically
and i never understand why would they do that.
wouldnt it hurt? isnt it absurb?
.
.
.
now i understand why...
its a way to release all the emotions you have kept inside
its a way to drain out your emotions and anger and distract your focus
.
.
.
each scar represents a different path filled with pain you've been through
each scar represents a memory
each scar reminds you not to make the same mistake again
each scar reminds you to be stronger and tougher
.
.
.
but in the end, nothings solved.
.
.
.
looking forward to wed's pe
i really need to smack high balls
freakin shuang feeling

2007-07-25T21:58:00.001+08:00

ouch

when you're gone

2007-07-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
when you're gone
the words i need to hear to always get me through the day
and make it okay

i miss youu

)':

i feel so hurt...
and it still hurts quite abit...

monday blues

2007-07-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

ok... im just feeling really angry. at everything
eye was twitchin in e mrng
true enough, something really happened
just need to get it off my chest...

first of all...
im angry with SOMEONE
the point is not about the book
its just...
ah wadeva
as if that SOMEONE will noe im angry too
no point being angry
dont wanna talk to him le
wads the point...
so nice also no point.
i will not be nice to you ANYMORE
it doesnt pay to be nice

then...
i stupidly picked no. 3
sorri guys
not that i want
damn pissed with myself too
ah wtf
ass...

ahh i wan to finish reading harry potter!
but i m so slow
stop being a spoiler ahs!!!

sat dinnered with chang
that was wad i totally needed
thanks alot <3

chatted and drank till 1+am i think
talked and pondered over lots of things about life
life is unfair...
life is mean...
but we are glad... we have each other ((:
and ha! we came to a conclusion we would kinda die for each other.
im glad we think so alike
we neednt spell out everything and we noe wads on our mind
((:

2007-07-17T20:52:00.000+08:00

im tired...
i stood there for a long time
just one step...
one step n everything ends
i didnt even have the courage.
so close...

aft observin arnd n todae at fish tank, i ask myself :
why do all chi high guys treat gals like shit?
big deal you are chi high?
puii.
assholes...
no. should be hwa chong guys.
so gals are jus things u play arnd with?
u need them, u go look for them
u dont need them, they're INVISIBLE.
n they're expected to follow or tag along?
stop using them!!!
get a life
you guys suck

i hate you...
you you you and you!
stop comin to me when u want / need sumt
nxt second jus take it im nothing?
fark off

THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX

2007-07-15T18:56:00.000+08:00

watched HARRY POTTER on friday night le
its act kinda disappointing?
i dno mans. it wasnt really WOW to me
oh wells. i like spend $9.50 to watch 1minute plus of CEDRIC! ((:

screw issues and ideas mans.
wtf
ruining everything...

i want to be alone...
yet im scared of the loneliness
i feel helpless
but i dont wan to receive help. what help could i possibly receive?
i dont feel like opening my mouth...
jus shuddup
im terrified with the images...
they are ruining me

life goes on...

unless its being put to an end......

bad dayy

2007-07-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

ok. today hasnt been a great day for me
getting irritated and pissed off over slightest things
many factors attribute to it. or maybe im just tired...

todae i jus realise how selfish SOMEONE could be and i was utterly disgusted
how can you only think of yourself mans n kb others??
wth.
next time shouldnt give a shit bout you.

hmm quite disappointed couldnt get to support canoe finals todae.
oh wells......

when i told my mama that now every thurs i end at 6pm and every sat have to go back sch in the mrng, she said, "wow.... no life."
WOW! thanks mama (:
boohoo. so sad to hear her sae that mans. even my mama thinks so!

alright. have been takin lots of pics in school.
here are some ((:
hey 6g! if want pics i try send to u. yeahh

life's unfair...

2007-07-06T19:05:00.000+08:00

okie dokie. farking blocks is over
and yeah. we're getting back our results now!
whoopee!
sick of it.
ass.

it leads me to come to a conclusion:
spendin my time to mug doesnt give me my grades
so, what for mug!
it doesnt pay off.......

i want to drop out of school.

this feeling and emotions jus keep coming in a cycle.
really am fed up.
the world's unfair
i dont even have faith in my god anymore...

and some ple jus keep go on spamming
"oh i didnt mug this at all mans! hahaha. gg le"
hey tell you something mans.. SHUT THE FARK UP!
U IRRITATE EVERYBODY!
STUDY AND MUG LIKE SHIT JUS SAE LAHS!
we wont think your 'smarter' cos u 'didnt mug'
come on lahs. we're not dumb...we dont give a damnn!
ass.

miss them LOTS...
haii.

wimbledon is getting boring.
everydae is raining and they show matches which are really unexciting?
even federer vs safin and v. williams vs sharapova was not exciting!
sian...

lookin forward to harry potter
((:

disturbing...

2007-06-11T20:07:00.000+08:00

i just find some ple reeally disturbing
not much of their actions
but more like their thoughts.
its... i dno. they're too locked up in their own world?
they would only self-pity themselves and everyone else is owns them all the shit in the world, and what happened to them
is that really true?
what happens to one is cause by others?
well... indirectly i guess?
but hey. who's the one reacting like this? behaving like this? who's making it worst?
did they reallly force you to take this step? like pointin a gun to your head making you move this very step that you think have screwed up your life?
so everyone is bad in your eyes?
come on...
grow up... thats the only thing i can sae to these ple...
why still live this farked up world of your own?
get out of there! grow up! be free! free from all these rubbish dumb thoughts. why still pursuit all these meaningless things? no point isnt it? what will you gain from doing all these?

i think im screwing up my life
oh no wait.
i have no life

chalet!

2007-06-04T21:43:00.000+08:00

okie dokie!
time to update and post something.

class chalet!
yes. had it last sun to tues at changi village there
wtf! the busstop is jus right outside the och! AHHHHH
)(&%@*$)
anw, yes
went there to mahjong! heh heh
got my feng shui sit n won lots! ((:
happy
aft which dinner den i left to chang's place
how farking much i missed her mans
((:
her dogs realli cute. 1st time im not scared of a dog n even touched it! omg! yes! haha
drank n took lots of crazy pics. haven had a gr8 time for bloody long time!

slept tgd on her single size bed with lots of pillows n bolsters... haha
woke up n went to swim to waste time. noone's at the chalet mans -.-
tried suntanning! hmmm. im still xiaobaii...

anw, went back aftnn n we cont mahjong!
no more luck :((
den...... we went to rent cycle! ahhh
i really dont like to cycle. its damn stressful!
cycled back n i act rammed into the railings nxt to me. nice...
den! got tis green catepillar jus appeared on my arm! wah! PAIN! n it was crawling up! damn gaowei! pui!
aft gettin back, mahjong again. haha
den it was bbq!!! me n liwei's bbq cken skill is good mans. yeah!

aft all the bbq-ing... its time to cycle again...
night cycling to changi airport! haha. we were at the side of the runway watchin all the planes take off. oh boy... how i wish i could be on the plane going somewhere for holidae now. really need one :((
yeahh. oh did i mentioned? i fell...
this time, i crashed into the telephone line box (the grey big box at the side of the pathways)
omg! wad a joke mans! ahhh. (dont luff!)

went back n i was really high. haha
stayed up till 6am. i still slept...
n woke up at 9! wth! dammn pissed! grrr

now... MUGGIN TIME!
WOOHOO!
haven been focusin.
cant do it.
fark

the world's end.

2007-05-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

pirates of the carribbean 3 is out!
GO WATCH IT!
i've watched le. heehee.
NICE! ((:
the fightin scenes are nice!!!
tho the pirates reli look damn chou PLUS that tenticles billy jones
haha

csc comp is such a joke mans
-.-

class chalet tmr! wonder will it be fun........
its near changi hospital!
shit lahs
SHIT!

wed went to support tennis gals final
well, we lost 3-2 to rj
haii
aft the whole match, it jus reminded me of my table-tennis finals
haii
wtf
mood got damn screwed? haha
just feel like... ay dno lahs
just feel down.
why do we always lose out so bloody close!
ergh...
ok no offense to anyone. jus, my lettin out my emotions

2007-05-18T22:29:00.000+08:00

hmm i m recovering
just feeeeling drowsy now and then cos of stupid medicine
wahh everytime eat my antibiotics, damn xin tong!
5pills for $35!
1pill = $7!!!
OMG!
ouchh....

maths tests sucks.
dont wanna talk bout it le.

have been dreamin of ong ying n est ho.
the good old daes back in st nicks.
i really really miss those daes
:((
my hatred for hc seems to increase almost everydae.
it sucks.

hmm somehow im feeling kinda depress inside
everything's falling apart
im starting to think wads the point of living....
whats my aim in life?
........

2007-05-12T11:17:00.000+08:00

im HOT
im burning

39.1 degree celcius

ahhhh
hurry recover...
nvr felt so ill before...

spidey!

2007-05-05T16:56:00.000+08:00

watched spidey3 with yg yst!
woah! tix were selling damn fast!
anw, well, i think we expected too much?
wasnt really that... WOW!
haha. anw, peter parker is damn chou....

i will not order swordfish collar in fish&co again!
lots of bone n u gta dig for the meat!
DAMN HARD!
/:

didnt expect ple to read the newspap....
erghh. damn chou!!! :(

i hate zao bao....
dont need play le. 1st rnd : BYE PASS
2nd round...... LI XUAN!
HOHOHOHO!!!
juuust walkover...
dont even need to search for my name. 2nd name shown on the fixtures. WOAH!
haiiii. sad case.

gna support S later.
better be good yo! lol
jiayou! ((:

2007-05-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

27th APRIL 2007;
inter school table tennis nationals finals
Adiv gals HCI vs RJC
it was a really intense and exciting game
our 1st singles and doubles lost...
so, HCI was 2-0 down.
nxt lixuan won.
yes.
its 2-1!
nxt, me n shan's turn.
DAMN SCARY! ergh
we lose, the whole team lose.
but still, we won. 3-2; 11-8.
YES!
2-2!
We still have a shot
last singles bowen played till 2-2 for that set too
OMG. it was really unbearable
could volcano at any moment.
durin my match i nervous till wan pee mans.
ANW...
haii.... we lost to RJ 11-9 last set...
it was this close.... just THIS CLOSE.
one ball could make a diff...
urgh. its kinda sad we lost this close?
but i noe we all did our best.
we put on our fightin spirit!
we gave them our best!
we chiong!
we zham!
we shaaaaaa!
yes.
it was the best match i eva played in my 9yrs of pingpong mans
woohoo
everyone cheering their lungs for u (ok mayb they didnt cheer till so... yeah. haha)

thanks for the straw star, paper lily, postcards, 'bookmark', smses and wishes ((:
thanks to those who came down and supported!
that meant alot ((:
thanks calvin fong! for comin dwn from kallang...
quite stunned n touched act
ok. i shall try to be nicer to u n dont bully u le. TRY
anw, hes the sji guy who i chiong to immediately aft my match.
hes my BROTHER. NOT my bf! PLS!
so mani tot hes my bf! come on! gaowei oh.... lol
thanks for the hugs and consolings...
thanks seniors for comin dwn!
thanks hctt, for making this possible. its a dream come true to play at toapayoh sports hall!
thank youuu

hmmm i shall try to forget the scores....
and be able to slp w/o thinkin bout them

haii. life w/o cca sucks.
i feel empty? sucks!
mugging season.
all tchas houndin me for work le. this pressre is worst than the pressure i face when i play mans.
ergh

GO WATCH 200POUNDS BEAUTY!
MEGA NICE!!!!
its funi n touchin as well!
wild hogs not tt bad also. can make u LOL.
((:

sports dae was MEGA SIAN -.-

went to buy shoes with shan aft tt
e more i see her shoes e nicer it looks
ok shan dont ego pls!
DONT STAMP WHEN U WALK N PURPOSELY MAKE SO MUCH NOISE TO TELL EVERYBODY : I'VE GOT NEW SHOES YO!
lol.

sleeping time
((:

HAPPY BDAE CHRISSY!!!
-huggs-
lol

2007-04-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

im feeling much better now after the outburst of my emotions
oh wells...
too much stuff inside
all are let out...
feels good!
feels lighter!

thanks for the tissue
thanks for the green tea!
((:

THREE MORE DAES TO THE FINALS!!!

2007-04-21T20:07:00.000+08:00

noone can be trusted, not even yourself
noone...
liars everywhere...
lies in your conversations
which is real? which is fake?
; you never noe...
conclusion: dont trust anyone
noone is worth trusting
enough of backstabings.

enough.

disappointed.
after all that i've put in in something i tot to be real and close to me
BUT
this is wad i get.
wad i hear really disappoints me much
im not angry.
im just, hurt?
hurt at how could you even sae tt...
or how could you even feel this wae
like HUHH!
couldnt really blv at first
i cant bring myself to trust you anymore...

does goals matter more than frenship?
i really wonder...

final charge!
27th april 2007 ; TABLE TENNIS FINALS
HCI vs. RJC
2PM
come support if you are free!
(((:
of cos come to support hci not rjc lahs
heh

2007-04-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

i hate you you farking self-pitying asshole
go burn yourself in hell
you dont deserve my pity ANYMORE bastard.
fark off from my world you pervertic shit
tears shed for you are a sign of my foolishness.
pui

2007-04-14T16:11:00.000+08:00

played with vj on thurs
we won 4-1!
((:
really thank my class for going down to support.
THANKS!
shan was GOOOD! hoho. good job partner
mondae against SA for semis...
jiayou!

seeing them feeling sooooooo upset
it saddens me too
my mood is also really down..
i dont know what to do, what to sae, or what NOT to do n NOT to sae
i feel so helpless not being able to do anyt to help them feel better.
feel so useless....
is it a trend to be emo now?
nearly everyone arnd me are emo-ing now...
its ok. im goona be emo-in now
im tired...
physically and mentally and emotionally tired
i need a break.

dont break down ffn....

2007-04-12T21:40:00.000+08:00

im mega happy todae
((:

2007-04-08T00:36:00.000+08:00

ok my blogger got some prob
pics uploaded all jumble up. haha. nice...

-chris hit me with tennis ball till blue black! OUCHHH

-this is how shermy look when he plays the piano!
haha. damn emo mans.

jus came back from jts
....
yuki yaki, AGAIN! last yr stj was here too. haha
anw, i was quite **@^!#&!$
ok. forget bout it. aft tt was pretti gd durin e pic takin n ice cream making

-damn errie! i was sitting at table 23 at yuki yaki!
(just watched no. 23) OMG!!!

-look at junyu's tiko face!
so pervertic! LOL

act got more pics
but... shall not create scandals etc for others. lol
weixiang was mega bushuang in the end tho. LOL
we all know why dont we....

oh wells
yst chang yanni darlin n S celeb my bdae in advance
went for dinner at balcony
when wan go up to drink
wtf. check ic -.-
ok.............. so suey.
oh wells
den we went to cosmopolitan.
it wasnt reli tt nice i must sae
cos the music reli damn @*%(&$@($
haii
it was like a sharin session or sumt
all of us being kinda sad deep inside with all our probs
its so hard being carrefree n tryin to ignore those probs huhh
why do the freakin assholes add so much prob to us?
its so heartbreaking to see all of us so trouble n sad n heartache over them
puiii
wads so good bout them!
rarrr...

oh wells... im getting emo these daes
i hate emo ple.
i m starting to hate myself...

2007-04-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

screw my farking life
its too complicated
farkkk
i want a simple life
S-I-M-P-L-E
sumtimes i envy those ple in the poor third world cntry
dont have so much complicated worryin issues to ponder n vex about

just watchedd no. 23 with shan huizhuang leeza n ys
NICE!
go watch it
its exciting n good! ((:

so far hctt have been winning our matches
hope we can continue this winning streak!

JTS THIS SAT!
cant wait...

i think i need to go slp n emo bout my screwed up life
erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
lifes a bitch
im a bitch
sian

2007-03-26T13:24:00.000+08:00

blocks has finally finished...
now my priority shall shift to nationals
1st round is starting on this fri against mjc.
den will play against innova den njc.
aft that 2nd round : 10, 11, 12 april
ahem. take note : 11 APRIL
haha. oops.
hope people will come support our team
thanks ((:

nice. me n yang got pang say-ed by the class...
woohoo!
........
wth

hmm lazy do my blog template properly. jus dao....
haha

went to balcony on fri with chang yanni darlin and S
wah i like that place mans. i think its nice ((:
S left earli
den 3 of us played some games, loser drink
shit lahs. end up i lose the most.
WAHHH! at 1st still winning... rarr... its ok!
den got high! (with lots of pee)
haha. when me n yanni darlin walkin to bus stop,
my stupid cok cok shoes hurtin like mad
took it off n walk barefooted on the road.
den.... when walkin, my last bus... DROVE PASS ME!
OMG!!! nice one -.-
called chang over tong bang cab home. heeheehee.
damn fun walkin on the centre of the road like ownin it mans.

i still havent watch music & lyircs....
sian
mr bean!!!!
((:

2007-03-18T18:48:00.001+08:00

farked up

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2007-03-18T18:48:00.000+08:00

2007-02-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

went to see the doc on fri evening
condition got worst.
i had to pay the medicine with my ang bao money!
WTF! ahhhhhh
$25 mans. sad...
after taking all the medicine, feeling damn drowsy now
so i shall go slp
byebye

2007-02-15T23:49:00.000+08:00

ok post one post before i go off tmr

yst vdae!

got pressies received!

yay ((:

love the pressie ai ren gave me!

i nearly got that for her too! lol

love u lots!

love the other pressies i received too!

haha ((:

thanks ple!

oh man got mega lots of choc!
n i still haven give out fin!

still got one more packet unopened...

rarr. buy so much -.-

haha. YANG LOVE HIS PRESSIE!

YES!

n wensi so qiao gave me wad i gave yang...

yes this fa cai mahjong tile...

hahaha. funny mans.

oh. we had fire drill tooo

OMG! MEGA HOT! damn sunny!

nothing to do ere jus take pics ((:

den... woohoo!

zhong dian lai lo!

X-COUNTRY AT MACRITCHIE!

nice...

but am official with chris

so slack. jus time keepin onli. haha

1314!!!!! lol

the guys were playing with the mic at the starting point!

hAHAHAHA!

DARTH VADER!

LOL!

zhiming started doin jay chou rap over there

ZAI!!! lol

played with mrs ong (my ct)'s sunglasses

cool right!!! *nods*

anw, well done to those who ran well!

act all ran well mans. zai!!!

((:

aft x-ctry went to eat at prata house

woohoo! near my hse!

NICE!!! ((:

aft tt wanted to go home le

met shan n chooky at bus stop decided to go icekimo n eat ice cream!

ok lahs... not really that fantastic like wad ricky said. haha. oops

haii. todae didnt started out well

i hate doing team work

it makes me feel stupid

it demoralises me (but not worst than evelyn ong... make me totally lose interest in econs. wth)

it makes me feel zi bei

I FARKIN HATE IT

fark it

its not i dont wan to think

its... i dont even noe wad should i be thinkin!

stop forcing me

i broke down todae

1st time for this year

fark

weak

im really tired from everything

sometimes i feel that i cant take it anymore!

i want to quit

i want to give up everything

fark

why make myself so miserable for!

ok random pics ((:

yang at tennis court.... lol

i got my OWN stamp! woohoo!

shermy and me... top secretttt!
shan!!!! lol
shermy!!! hahaha! cute

my angel zhao xuen with the pressie i gave him ; hello kitty boxers! LOL!

2007-02-13T21:16:00.000+08:00

ooo aunt n cousin come from taiwan
stayin at our hse
haii..
my room invaded
MISS MY ROOM NOW!

yst cousin was alr slping.
need to take things from my room
wah! i have to sneak in to get them
SNEAKY!
omg... im like sneaky in MY room???
-.-

tmr's vdae! ((:
act... now when its nearer...
its jus another normal dae wad
i buy so mani choc for wad!
rarrrr....

cant wait for the holidae ((:

2007-02-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

woohoo!
i've got my new fone le!
finally!
((:

but wtf...
M1 doesnt give memory card?
farking pissed lahs.
DAMN SCAM!

fri o levels results came out
went back to st nicks..
miss the place so much!
n i finally... finally ate orange bowl! ((:
to those who got back their results:
congrats if you did well! whee~
PARTY!!!
to those who arent satisfied with their results;
hey hey. cheer up yah?
been thru there.
but its alr happened.
so embrace it get over it and smiles ya?
((:

ESTHER!
DONT SAD KKS?
I'L ALWAYS LOVE U!
MUACKS MUACKS!
even tho u decided that we should go eat at marina bay the steamboat there where all of us tummyache aft tt....
NICE..
lol
speaking of whihc, there was one table who eat until the aluminium caught fire!
eat steamboat till catch fire...
lol

went home took 162
i sit at the 4ple seats dere wan
woah! (ok no offense ya?)
behind me british ple
meng spam ~~fark~~
beside the row there phillipines
kept talkin damn fast n loud n ALOT!
sit right beside me n oppo me is 2prc woman
quarrelling NON-STOP till they got off the bus!
n their sentences n arguments can repeat wan!
mega noisy! whooo~
but i still managed to doze off...
haha. n my head knock on the window -.-
MALU! think it was abit loud!
ahhhhh

everybody!
DONT FLICK ME IN THE FUTURE!
will piss me off
this mega weirdo wanted the seat inside in the bus
(cos i slpin on the outer seat he cant sit down)
he act FLICKED me on my arm to make me move inside!
like WTF!
PUI!

haii sian
going back to indo on fri
gna miss celebration in sch. lalala
but... going back...
NOT EXCITED (except for the collect ang bao part)
rarrr
go back feed mosquitoes
WHEE~

totally in love with the song sweet escape by gwen stefani
SEND ME IF U HAVE!
((:

2007-02-05T21:14:00.000+08:00

i know why do i feel sad le...

its cos i go to school

thats like a graveyard for me

fark it.

i hate the me now

it sucks

cont living in my sms world...

2007-02-04T01:21:00.000+08:00

just came back from STJ (senior treat junior)
rarr.... so much $$$ gone....
POOF!
lol. but its ok. it was pretty fun ((:
we went to marina sq's seoul garden
den celebrated the feb bdae babies!
*ahem. nice cake rite???? yummy
btw, todae was regina's bdae!
HAPPY BDAE!

before that went to ps do some research for geog -.- while waitin for mama cut hair etc
den go meet ai ren n shermy at somerset

go shop for angel mortal
still need one more gift! rarr. tough

headed dwn to marina sq soon
more shopping! hahaha

we were all mega hungry! but all waiting for THAT moment...
THAT buffet moment! mega hungryyyy....
so go qi ji...

ok. now finally buffet moment!
haahaha! special moment of regina n wx! :p
(everyone relaxin. got nothing real gg on btw them)

aft eating was pic time!!!!
let the pics do the talkin ((:

we had no games -.-
rarrr.... 68 was somewhere near us playing games! haha

bowling time!!!
josiah is really good at it mans.
woohoo! he had to fang shui mans
told him to do the bowl in between his legs like this
he act managed a strike! WOOHOO!
niceeee ((:
look at yenniboi's pose! lol

there are mani other ple's pose i took too.

lazy upload le.

ok... now the emo part. dont wan list jus daoooo

ITS ENUF
ENUF!
stop it u two! we cant take it anymore!
its damn farked up
all of us can feel it
stop this nonsence!
why make life diff n miserable for all of us!
made me feel uneasy the whole night...
n yst...
n yst.........
mayb that explains for my moodiness
i feel diff now
diff...
i dont feel the same
i just.... dont like to talk as much?
(unless needed)

im like just living in my sms world! its my get awae

its hard tryin to hide everything behind this (:

i try.........

i need a brk
i need time off
i cant stand this shit
i want to get out
i want to get awae
n now i jus pissed my bro off.

nice...

xu wei lun has left...
really sad
just like that... at the age of onli 28
when the news show her stuffs n everything on tv when she alive n everything, i jus felt reli xin suan...
hope she can rest in peace.
at least she enjoyed her 28yrs of life...

2007-01-28T01:27:00.000+08:00

just came back from east coast
went to reuben's bbq bdae party ((:
nice
pulled chang with me.
phew so glad she came or i reli wud have died dere
haha.
mega irritated! we onli got on the 7th bus at ps busstop to go to east coast!
gosh! all 6 previous busses mega full cant even squeeze in
rarrr....

didnt go sch on wed
why?
migrane again -.-
sian...
pain till wan go bang the wall n kiap my head btw the cupboards!
ouch**
pills are finishin too!
i will die w/o them
kudos to whoeva invented them ((:

i want to quit school and marry to some rich guy and live like a tai tai and do nothing but go shopping for everyone!
make my wish come true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

another hectic week has passed
n it sucks like shit
mentally n physically MEGA tired
lots of work and tests coming
tmrs chem
organic
puii
i studied!
think i gna fail tho
cant rem!
haiii
sian

oh wells....
struggling inside to get an ans
still am now...

i feel....... pathetic?
ha. yes pathetic.
lots of mixed feelings going inside me
yeah i shudnt be sad jus like wad chrissy sae...
its unhealthy
but not like i can control
whats there to make me happy?
even if i am... they are onli there for awhile...
nxt moment, their gone...
i dont see them anywhere near me

life shud be filled with love and happiness
not chemistry or physics or wadeva crappy shit
why force us?
why so pragmatic?
and cause us misery?
rarrr
i hate this shit

made 2 nitemares yst
immediately went over to mama room wan bunk in
i shook her : mum mumm....
my hair was over my face n everything...
she woke up look at me n SCREAMED!
hahaha
oops! sorri

oh wells. go revise abit chem

2007-01-14T16:07:00.000+08:00

hey hey
here are the pictures for the j1 orientation ((:

this is 07S6G (junior class)'s flag! NICE!!! pity nvr got chosen...

these two jokers are from my junior class; shane and josiah. haha

shane's act 188cm? wth! taller den dear roddick! wth

ai ren darryl lim n me
HAHA! daryl lim... cute eh!
ai ren wearin dunman uni, me in cedar
how do we look? ((:

me and ai ren at prince ((:

me and dear junior; song yuen.
*you 3 dont jealous :p

chiobu!!! lol. cute. ok. camera not veri good. not my fault
got a pic of his classmate (guy) wearin cedar uniform!
CUTE bunk! lol. shant put it up ltr he come whack me

yay! thats the light up of turbo charge!
cant really see the words and the wheels tho. yupp

yang aft he got dunked into chrissy's hse pool! hhah
din manage to get chrissy's one aft he got dunked

hmm dno how to upload videos. alright tts all i guess

((:

2007-01-13T00:15:00.000+08:00

gaowei....
someone TOOK my fone awae!
FARK!
curse that person fall dwn break his teeth sprain ankle go hospital hair keeps droppin lots of pimples got tummy got zi chuang!
go fark urself mans
take my fone
ass
and till now still cant find it!
nice..........
damn xin tong can!
LOTS of things inside!
fark
pissed lahs
now gta use my dads fone
same no.
but pls come tell me ur no. cos i lost all contacts. thx! ((:

todae had sec1 orientation campfire
i wore cedar uniform. haha. but its mega big for me
anw, e audition performance was quite sian overall lahs...
den e campfire itself still alrite ((:
fac dance was shown
NICE!!!!!!!!!!!
((:
took quite afew pics. whee~
shan n wensi n peiyu damn gaowei diao
lol
oops!
will upload soon.

aft tt went over to chrissy's hse
talk cork over ere. yeah
haha. quite ok lahs. got to noe e juniors better too! yeah
they are pretti nice ple! whee~
n i love my angel!
love writting to him!
FUN! wahahaha
mrs ong damn nice!
tho she pang seh us...
she ordered pizza n treat us!
oh mans. so glad we got her as our ct!

now jus reach home waiting to use toilet. heh
n i shall go now! bb!
((:

2007-01-07T16:23:00.000+08:00

ok. 2nd post
summary of 1st week of sch!
haha

liewqi brought back taiwan's sanitary pad and plasters!
nice...
alrite. there are marshmellow and choco respectively. haha
cute mans! i go taiwan gna spam on them

huang cheng's new poster
NICE! got mirror!
and its at alot of places in the sch
NICEE!!! ((:

check out our pingpong notice board!!!

MEGA NICE RITE! (cannot sae no)

cant wait for the product when all the pictures and everything are up.

whee~

now....

off to chem!

2007-01-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

i have had enough.
i cant take it, anymore...
its killing me inside.

i need a change
but, what kind of change?

give up?
carry on this shit?

what will happen?

will i regret?

i dont noe
struggling for an answer...
conclusion : no ans

everything's f-ed up
right from the start, it is a mistake
a huge mistake in my life

i wan to have my normal life back
this wont help me to be successful in life!
i dont wan to feel helpless / hopeless, anymore!
it stinks

2007-01-02T16:04:00.000+08:00

YAY! ITS 2007!
BOO ITS SCH TMR!
(YUCK)
tho kinda excited whos gna be in our junior class... haha
n new ct of cos...

anw, stayed overnite at frens hse for countdwn
played mahjong!
but onli awhile
n!!! ahhh! we played got tai wan
so must have 2 tai before u can win
n guess wad!
got 1x, i can win alr!
but... i got no tai! dammit
den!!! i zi mo! woohoo!
cant win...
so throw another tile...
den! i zi mo AGAIN!
nice...
n sumone throw the tile i can win AGAIN!
nice... i could win bout like 4 or 5times lahs. haha
damn pek chek!

af tt got 'surprise'
den watched death note 1.
it was kinda boring as compared to deathnote 2 which was good!
den... watched this

at 1st was pretti funni.
den........
omg.... MEGA SICK!
yuck! no wonder R21!
haha
slept at 6+am
woke up at 10am
nice......

saw from newspap fireworks look reli nice!
too bad missed it :(

my new year resolution:

1) CHAMPION for nationals and win all matches w/o mercy! wahhaha. ok evil pok

2) dont get ~~retained~~ aft 1st block test

3) stop failing n gettin S and U! pui pui pui! (ok lahs. abit nvm? heh)

4) stop slping in classes n lectures (poke me lightly if i do)

5) do all hmwk

6) save money $$

7) less tv / movies/ entertainment except tennis with andy roddick

8) sleep early before 12!

9) achieve good complexion! haha

10) stop gettin eyecandies! not gd for health

11) cont irritate chris

12) GROW TALLER!

13) be less afraid of dark -.-

14) do well for A's

ok i think thats all for now
wish me luck
((:

2006-12-31T16:34:00.000+08:00

this -->
DONT WATCH!

this -->
WATCH!

jus had class outing on fri
watch deathnote2
NICE!!!
L! mega cute!
n tis 2 n half hour! NICE!
damn worth it huhh
haha

yeah! tmr is 2007 le!
DAMN FAST!
woohoo
have fun in 2007 everybody!
haha

2006-12-27T00:46:00.000+08:00

yay! xmas ((:
received pretti great pressie from my family! haha
we had mani food for dinner mans
spaghetti, shepards pie (i make), another pie, salad, mushroom cream soup w mega big bread, err dno wad else. we had to try and clear the food again the nxt dae. haha

anw, just came back from sntt camp
woke up aftnn den go raffles city eat den head dwn to st nicks.
MISS ST NICKS MEGA LOTS!
((:

it feels nice to be back ere...
jus standin there feels nice! haha
but sadly no orange bowl )):

anw, aft awhile, its the exciting TREASURE HUNT!
whee~ its always the highlight of the camp. haha
this yr my batch help out with the treasure hunt game masters
tis yr, they damn meng! lol
still made fake doll with body n mega scary mask
which is wad i m wearin :p

heres xinrong! haha. cute ehs!

heres shan! lol. but i end up wearin this mask thruout to scare ple

she made the mask look so UNscary -.- haha
we went arnd scaring ple.
fun!!! haha. oops
den xinjin n jingwen got angry n scared!
so they were saein whoeva go scare them they go whack who!
ok... i tio whack.....
xinjin whack my mask n it hit my teeth! OUCH!
shan ran awae damn fast... haha

when me n shan go back drama studio take cloth, everyone was watchin dorm
so, i decided to scare them 1st (evil pig)
i wore the mask, and crawl to the screen n sat up!
n wtf! noone reacted! )(&@)^(&%@@
den i ROARR!!!
nothing too -.-
xinjin sae wah wads tt hollow one...
haha.
when we left, still cant blv it
try again!
wore the mask walk mega close to a jnr n stood right infront of her!
she screamed!
EVERYBODY SCREAM!
YAY!!! ((:
manpin shouted : go to hell lahs!
/:

overall, tonite was fun! yay!

oh wells, left at 11+ lidat

miss seeing all my juniors mans.
its been a long time i guess
"DONT SLACK, SMACK AND ATTACK!"
i <3 sntt!
((:

2006-12-24T16:25:00.000+08:00

went to sing Kbox with chang n yanni darlin the other dae
for about 6hours plus!
omgdo!!!
throat hurts like shit! lol
miss them mega much!
but dumb shit. we didnt take pics. nice...

yst yst... meaning fri
went out with yang n yi-en go shop for xmas pressies
yay! got afew of them le
got my papa's one too
a gerrad adidas shirt which i bet he will love it
haha
watched eragon aft tt

THE GUY IS PRETTI CUTE
but i think i e show abit disappointing!
it was damn short n NOT enuf story
its like its just not enuf lahs
den walk arnd aft tt saw tis!

gingerbread man dancing on the piano!!!
CUTE! haha

yst which is sat...
trng at sunsports again... dreadful
but oh wells, thinkin that its toilet has shampoo n soap provided... ITS OK!
our team had present xchange
haha! damn fun ((:
i picked until chiobu!
alex picked until me
thanks again alex!
oh wells guess i missed out the fun at jan n jay's hse huhh
MAODUN WORE ANKLE SOCKS YST! OMG!
nice ((: keep up mao!

check out wensi's new specs which is on me... haha

anw, left them aft trng n met up with yang n chris n yi-en
went to b&j n eat! YUMMY!!!!
hapi hapi
den watch a night at the musuem

GO WATCH PLE!
ITS MEGA FUNNI!
HAHAHHA

aft tt went arnd shoppin n walkin arnd with chrissy since the other two left

got my mama's pressie! bro's too in e aftnn.

they btr buy for me mans. i buy for all of them!

grrr... haha

tonite xchange pressie

so exciting!

havin our xmas 'da can' at home!!!

wonder wad food they prepared

ok i shall go cont do work

MERRY XMAS EVERYBODY!!!

((:

2006-12-18T14:39:00.000+08:00

)):

not good mans...
i dreamt of chang ~~dying~~ in the pool when bobby failed to save her n pull her out in time
omg. i even saw the image of her dere shoutin for help n gaspin for air in the water...
totally terorized.....
BOBBY! WHY NVR SAVE HER! )):
haha

den had another weird dream
i followed them to kl...
den *somebody* meng niao n despise n sae me like those hk series show the san gu liu po meng shoot ple!
OMG! i felt soooo angry!
nvr been so angry b4 in REALITY!
gosh!
so i went off angrily...
den took cab w bobby
haha bobby again -.-
den taxi driver scam us!
ride was $80 for me, $70 for him!
CRAZY MAN!
suddenly his wife join us in the cab
den he drop her at some area buy lingeries!
-.-
damn weird

den yea! i woke up ((:
tho still veri scared of chang's dream

pizza hut for lunch!
i forgot change out of my boxers....
so... the delivery guy came
n... i was in my boxers....
opened e door give him $$$, he was lookin at it
ahhhhhhhhhh
)^@)&%
so embarrassing.

last nite mahjong
NICE! won $26!
haha.
at 1st we all got $35
mama play till onli left $1 /:
lol.
den got one time my tiles SUPA NICE!
1-9 'wan', 3 dong n 2 9'wan' as yan jing
WOOHOO!
NICE ANOT!
all the 'wan' !!!!
n i won ((:
yay!!!

now off to maths.
fark maths

2006-12-13T00:33:00.000+08:00

watched the holidays todae!

JUDE LAW IS CUTE!
esp his eyes...
lalala!
can jus fall in love... hahaha
GO WATCH!
((:

i hate dota
STOP DOTA!!!!!!!!!
grrrrrrrr
make me feel so lonely
:((
*HINTS HINTS*

fark you lahs!
just fark off seriously
wasnt angry
NOW i am angry
i shud defend for myself huhh
fark
STOP judgin me base on wad others said to u
YOU knew me
they dno me!
i dont care wtf they sae
but from someone i noe act HA! thinks lidat too?
wtf
go kiss ur ass lahs
farker
pui
so i see...
ur sumone who just listens to wadeva ple sae all those rumours n shit n those NON existence shit n THINKS it is so! ok! if thats how u judge n think of someone/anyone... den ur a farkin loser. seriously...

wah damn farked up now
have been feeling farked up

yst....
watchin her cry
i was farkin scared that the bad shit will reli happen
if it happens...
i think my world will collaspe
all of ours would too
nothing will eva happen to u...
u will be fine!
((:
pui all the bad pessimistic tots!
nothings confirmed......

im a farkin drunkard.
i shud go drink now

2006-12-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

todaes trng damn farked up
1st, FREAKIN tired cos of my stupid ~~nitemareS~~!
had 2 sumore. wtf
2nd, played like shit for frenly vs ntu.
farked up receving the services.
percentage tt i received the ball properly -> 10%
how worst can it get?
pui lahs. den kok dao my rubber pimple come out!
oh my michael maze! )):

but....

aft trng.....

HAHAHHAHHAHA! sumt funni happened.
HAHHAHAHAAHA! N ITS SUPER GROSS!
someone's undies.........
ok. i cannot sae here.
too much details is not good.

woohoo!
den aft trng went to watch deja vu!
NICE!!!
exciting! bomb bomb! effect not bad! lead actress chio too!!!
go watch ((:

aft tt go ps's starbucks queue for free drinks!
haha. nice!
its for some charity.
so jus donate lahs. if not damn ps.
mama papa dere too.
so met up w them. walk ps abit.
bought new guess wallet! ((:
didnt reli reli like it so much as compared to other designs de
but oh wells. long stori i end up w this.
not TT bad lahs.

home ((:

im missing youuuuu
)):
haha
but am i seriosuly missing u? hmm

2006-12-03T01:54:00.000+08:00

im feeling farked up...
dont wan slp i need to rant shit.
farked up lahs.

todae didnt started well le...
n it cont to suck...
tnrg --> SUCKED!
i seirously hate todaes trng
wtf was i playin! i dnooooooooooo
wtf was i thinkin! i dnoooooooooo
seriously......
i cant piece up my strokes n services tgd!
-.-
is tis wad i have been trng for?
if yes i can jus 'retire' go eat shit...

aft tt not interesting.
dont need type it all out lahs hohh
(:

wad do i have?
i have nothing....
NOTHING

2006-11-30T19:07:00.000+08:00

jus came back from hctt chalet yst
ok lahs. not bad. except pay freakin lots. all of us did!
crazy......

1st day chalet (mondae) clash with sunsports com
1st match against vj.
ok. we lost
n we were pissed.
we werent pissed with the fact we lost.
its their attitude n wad they said OUT LOUD!
me n shan played 1st doubles...
sori. carmen jus blatently shouted out loud : CAN WIN WAN! VERI EASY [ x 3 ]
OK! RELI EASY! 2-3! WOW! SUPER!
den opponent can even throw me n shan's bat to the other side of the table
niceeeeeeee
MY MICHAEL MAZE KENA THROW!
WTH!!!!
its jus... er diao lahs.
n mani more stories.
daoooo
we do nothing also kena mega diao lidat!
DOUBLE NICE!!!

anw our team got joint 3rd...
yupp.
guys... gosh. dno wad happen 1st rnd out!!!
)(&@)^*%@
money for chalet... POOF!
lol

1st nite xiaobai gang didnt do much, go slp earli
nxt dae got match
the others havoc crazy crazy
they played dare or dare
n watched texas chain of massacre
fark. DAMN GROSS!
den can hear them scream from below too!

2nd dae go sunsports get thrash onli... lol
but nvm lahs. at least kope jersey! hee

den shop at carrefour for bbq food
spends $177.10!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in e end abit too much food also -.-
oh oh! den we wan nite cycle rent bike
walk to the east coast side for 2HRS!!!!!!!
ben jasper ys xf ran! crazy
me n shan jus walk.... haha
n omg! I LEARNT HOW TO CYCLE!
YAY!!! hapi hapi
but damn unsteady.
1st crash to bush! -.-
2nd stuck at a hill (thx to stupid jasper) den manual go up hill
meaning use leg push....
n guess waD! kena luff by troops marchin pass!
NICE! made fun by them!
(!&)^*@)$!
3rd nearly crash to peiyu n fell dwn! slided abit too!
OUCH!

1st time in spore see so mani stars!
still see the 3stars aligned tt one!
((:

come back tired
juuust keep slp -in
made dreams bout skeleton troops sumore!
fark
damn scary
i was nearly killed sumore

2006-11-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

ok. shall blog.........

yst had com;
THE 1ST INTERGENERATION TABLE TENNIS COMPETITION!
-.-
i partner with ah bei for mix doubles
play in sunsports green team
HAHAH
my ah bei... damn funi lahs
our 1st match against yushan!
ha. so qiao
den ... everyone was luffin at my ah bei!
HAHA
i cudnt concentrate mans. gosh
but in e end i got alil pissed at him
sorri!
[pms period]
but damn funi why i pissed w him also.
haha
cos when ple hit nice ball, he will raise his hands n thumb n sae : HAO QIU! (good ball)
OUT LOUD!
jenn n gang were luffin like mad! lol
den ah aft tt durin a game rite...
we were all hittin nice balls continuous!
den! his turn to hit!
instead of tryin to return the ball, he sae : HAO QIU! with his hands n nvr hit the ball!
OMGDO!
where got ple play nvr hit the ball but go HAO QIU at opponent sumore!
nice.............

hmm this comin week mon-wed hctt chalet
thurs-fri or sat sntt camp!
haha!
busy pingpong week
mon still got sunsports comp too
hope we can come out top of the grp for the round robin
semis also easier
yes
GO HCTT!!!!
((:

i wan watch deathnote!
i wan watch step up!
i wan watch happy feet!
i wan watch open season!
i wan watch.... hmm wad else?
haha.

so mani to watch!
so lil time
/:

time to go shop for pressies!

2006-11-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

back afew daes le!

went out w chenji, had tennis, had class outing [casino royale], trng

missed all these! ((:

im back to civilisation! yes!

alrite... farkin bored bloggin
i shall consider daoin it foreva..............